wow... so its been a very LONG time! i was readin my last weblog and said somethin about wantin a cat... but I have one!!! her name is KIKI and shes a whiny spaz who talks alot hehe...shes a GREAT cuddler. I love it!! shes a miracle kitty who was found in a drain pipe by the vet i worked at in tahlequah. I"m in tulsa and besides the fact that i'm finishin my last couple gen ed hours at TCC everything is good. Things are kinda workin out its really strange bc i always get worked up about what im gonna do and my future. and its falling into place. I love to worry so lately the bible has really been keeping me in line. If you think about it there is a direct relationship with worrying and God.... the lack of trust and control God can have over your life. I hate to admit it but that's what worryin is... know what i mean? so I got a job at Akins... I cant wait to start... which will be monday. im a sales associate for the supplements and training for 6 straight months. It will be a great opportunity because it directly relates to the careers im thinkin about..... health and sales! 

 my next decision! where i will be attending college in fall of 06

probably about time to update... nothin to much has changed! Been workin a lot in the Vet clinic so any spare time I get I'm doing homework or working out. Sadly I dont think I will meet my goal by this wednesday for pictures but I am still hopeful and working to achieve some kind of results...

I want a kitty... my boss breeds polydactyl cats.... no its not a dinosaur cat mix. They have 1 or 2 extra toes per paw and they are SOOOOOOO cute but my momma said NO!!!

I really should continue to study for this GPS test.... Takn it tomorrow and uhhh pretty sure I dont know what Im reading!! woohooo!

When you falll in love with someone it isAMAZING!! Although the new wears off like EVERY relationship you are left with trust, security, and an endless love. I love him! The other day i was just giddy because Im so happy with us right now! Tyler, you are amazing and Im so greatful for what we have.

So i started my personal training today. I hope it works!! I need to be slimmer in my middle so that when I'm dancing for the Tulsa 66ers I will be comfortable dancing. I have about 60 days. I am hopeful! I have to cut out sugars completely!! what will i do!

Homecoming is this weekend on Saturday.. It will be my first football homecoming in a long time that I wasnt actually a part of the festivities... and by that I mean I'm not a lil pom girl. I am really wishing that Tyler can come on Saturday but he prolly has to practice. I just want to show him off to NSU...sounds stupid I know. But hes such an important piece of my life and I talk about him non-stop obviously but no one knows who he is.... and he doesnt really know my friends. anyway im just being hopeful once again.

Im prolly going to go to his game on Sunday with his parents. Its in springfield at MSU, formerly SMS. Thats the school I have been considering attending next year so I kinda want to go and check it out. I will be going to MSU's homecoming. They have a really good dance program Im kinda interested in!

anyway i need to get ready for class.... love you guys!!!

So I let things get to me really easy... and i freak out about them and get all worked up over things.As a christian I should just let it roll off my back but struggling between the flesh and the spirit makes not overreacting very difficult. I should love my neighbors as myself... HAve you ever really thought what that means? When I think of that I normally think but "my neighbor" does this... he/she lies... he/she is manipulative and if I love that person then they are a good person.I dont like a lot of things about myself.. i bet you are the same... But I love myself and hope for growth and change. Thats what we should do as loving christians. Love our neighbors despite their character flaws because God knows we have them to and pray and hope for growth and change, not only in your neighbor but in yourself that you would not condemn your neighbor and that God would help us to walk in the fruits of the spirit!

Run down of my schedule for that past well whenever.....I have been workin a whole lot... I work at the WB from 10-1 M-F as a receptionist. And for the past 3 weeks I have been workin at Southern HIlls 6 days a week from 1:30-7. Finally my boss hired more girls. When i was hired i was only supposed to be workin relief, like 3-4 days a week. But the full time girl quit so I became that girl....but things are gettin better. I actually get to have a vacation. I was going to be really sad if i had to stay home and work both jobs while Ty and his family got to go to the beach. I was especially going to be heartbroken because I had been planning on taking Tyler to the beach for the first time. I had hoped for last summer and then at the end of this summer if I had the money. I wanted to be a part of his first experience and do something really special for him. It would be something he would always remember. So when I found out he would be going and the likelihood that I would not, I was sad. But miraculously I got off for both jobs and ANDREA is helpin me out tons. Shes goin to work at the WB for those four days. It will be fun!! Thanks a lot andrea! Anyway Im startin to think about school and its going to be much better that Ty's goin to coffeyville, its about 2 1/2 hours from the QUAH. I'm still dancing for NSU so maybe Tyler willl be able to come down and watch a game or somethin. I go to Tylers games.... me and melita! Im such a dummy about baseball its really a great thing to have someone know what shes talkin about. Only sometimes i dont know what shes talkin about and i just go along with it! lol. ummm I've been workin out lately. Its the worst feeling to be half-naked and out on the football field or basketball court. so im really trying to mold my body into something that I can be proud of and not so uncomfortable. Its one thing to just stand out there in a half top, but to be dancing and havin ur flub jiggle all over everywhere.... thats another story!!!

Sorry... its been a while i work 2 jobs and try to find time to have fun and enjoy my boyfriend

(This has 2 parts: a list and at the end, something to open--enjoy!)

The most destructive habit..............................Worry
The greatest Joy.......................................Giving
The greatest loss.......................Loss of self-respect

The most satisfying work.......................Helping others
The ugliest personality trait....................Selfishness
The most endangered species...............Dedicated leaders

Our greatest natural resource.....................Our youth
The greatest "shot in the arm".................Encouragement
The greatest problem to overcome........................Fear

The most effective sleeping pill................Peace of mind
The most crippling failure disease....................Excuses
The most powerful force in life..........................Love

The most dangerous pariah..........................A gossiper
The world's most incredible computer................The brain
The worst thing to be without.... . Hope

The deadliest weapon..............................The tongue
The two most power-filled words......................"I Can"
The greatest asset.....................................Faith

The most worthless emotion.........................Self-pity
The most beautiful attire.............................SMILE!
The most prized possession........................ Integrity

The most powerful channel of communication............Prayer
The most contagious spirit.........................Enthusiasm

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This is one you'll like. Someone put in a lot of effort to compile this. Just click on the word "smile" below and get ready to enjoy.

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